Quick Thought: Acceptance

1:51 AM

My birthday is less than a month away, and this is the first time since I turned twenty five that I am not afraid of turning a year older. I've always feared running out of time, and not getting the chance to do what I believe is my purpose. I never wanted life to pass me by, and have to look back at what could have been. When I was going to school to be a psychologist, I felt like something was missing. Sure, I loved the subject that I was studying, and I had a pretty good idea what I wanted to do with my degree, but I had to ask myself, will I ever use this degree? The answer was pretty obvious, no, I would never use it, it would just be a pretty diploma that said I could use it if I chose to. Twenty seven is three years away from the year where I believe that my life will change drastically. I have so many plans for thirty, so many ideas and goals, and I'm excited about. I'm running out of time, but that thought is making me work harder rather than scaring me, as it has in the past.

I know who I am, I know what I want to be, and what I want to do, and what I'm going to do, and I'm excited. I won't lie, it scares me a little to share these thoughts, because I think, what if this doesn't work out like I planned? It's that fear of failure again. But I share because I want to one day not be afraid to share my goals. I want to look at the things that didn't happen and say, it wasn't meant to be. And know that it not happening does not equal failure, but rather growth and acceptance of life's changes, and God's plans. I have my own plans, but I am completely aware that my plan is no match for God's plan for me.

So, I'm ready for twenty seven, and everything that comes with it, the good, the bad, and the not so desirable, and I'll accept every challenge thrown at me. When I stumble, I'll get back up and try it another way, or try something a little different. It's the bad things that makes you appreciate and remember all of the good things to come, or that have come.

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