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1:43 AM

I'm in this weird place right now. I'm not happy, not sad, not worried, and I'm not relaxed. I guess you could say I'm just accepting of everything around me. I don't panic when things don't go my way, I don't get angry or sad when I realize that certain people aren't supposed to be a part of my life in 2012, I just accept it and move on. That's saying a lot seeing as how just last year, I was having the worst year ever. I talked about my feelings a lot, but I kept a lot of it to myself. Note to those who have personal blogs: you don't have to share your entire life with those who read your words. It's ok to keep a piece of yourself private.

I didn't make any huge changes in my life and I haven't made any plans to do so (like I did last year). Yes, there is a lot that I want to accomplish this year, but those things just kind of rolled over from last year, you know, like minutes from AT&T...wait, do their minutes still roll over? Have they ever rolled over? I don't know, I have Sprint. Anyway, I'm going to do those things this year and what I don't accomplish in 2012 will just go with me to 2013. I'm starting my vision board tomorrow after I finish doing this whole job hunt thing with my best friend. I hate starting a new job, having to get to know people again, and figure out where you fit in, IF you fit in, and if you don't, having to find another job that fits you, or you fit, and having to start the process all over again. Do you know how exhausting that is? It's the reason I stay at my jobs at least two years. Because even when it's bad, at least I expect it to be bad, there are no surprises, there is no awkward moment...unless your manager is 60 and shops at Gymboree, then the shit gets pretty damn awkward. Oh yeah, my manager bought a sweater that was meant for ten and twelve year olds (the tag said so) the other day, and all I could say was, Girl...I mean really?

I decided that although having a psych degree is great, I want my degree in English. I love English, and I love writing, and...I feel like Lynn on Girlfriend, except, I have a job...yes, I hate the place, but I have one.. I don't want twenty degrees, that's just crazy. I just want to be happy with whatever journey I choose to take, ya know? No regrets just lessons. I plan on doing these ramble posts from time to time, you know, to air the shit out that I haven't been able to say out loud or forget to say sometime.

Oh! I'm also apartment hunting.Listen, if LA does not get the entire fuck out of here with these prices. I found one apartment that was amazing! But then they were all, Oh yeah, there is no kitchen. Sir, you say what now? I know I don't cook often, but I cook. My mom told me I should get the place because I could come home and cook meals for the week and then take them home. Man listen...no! But they did try to talk it up with, a refrigerator comes with the apartment.  And then they were all, and a microwave! So picture it, no kitchen, so your refrigerator  has to sit in your living room with the microwave on top of it, I think not. Granted, it's in an amazing location, the price is great, the apartment is beautiful but I can't live like that. The apartment would be perfect for someone who only goes home to take showers or even a Freshman in college, but it is not perfect for this twenty six year old. *sigh* ya'll I'm twenty six, I still haven't accepted this yet. I'm working on it.

Now, as one of my favorite writers would say before she logged off Twitter every night: love someone and mean it. ~Bassey Ikpi

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