Feeling The Pressure

2:13 PM

Alana,when are you going to publish your book?

I received an e-mail from an old high school friend today.It was about the release of her first novel,I talked to my dad about how proud I was of her and it didn't take long for him to ask me when I was going to publish my novel.I've been writing since I was in high school and I finished my first manuscript four years ago and I've been sitting on it for just that long.I've also written two short stories and started several other manuscripts.I'm sure you're asking what am I waiting on,and the answer is:I'm waiting for my fear of failure to stop crippling me.Allowing others to read my writing is like stripping myself bare in front of a group of people and saying here,look at all of my imperfections and criticize me like only you can.I'm not so sure I'm ready for that.

Sure I can write,but that does not mean that I write anything that people want to read.Nor does it mean that I want to let people into my head because that's what I'd be doing.My characters are not me,however they are people like me,they are like the people in my life,so I guess you can say that they are a part of me.I am feeling the pressure from a friend who I have allowed to read many of my stories and from my father who has never read one of my stories but knows that they exist.So now I am stuck,I am at a standstill,and I don't know which way to go.

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